Years Old

With change as steady as the way wallets empty and old cars pace,
I stop and pin constancy to a dorm room wall–
a dozen glossy paper mirrors.
I stare and I am again, who I’ve always been–
the narrator of a funny short story
the neon yellow laces in a black shoe
a first grade art project
a laugh that is so still in all it’s chaos it has no sound.

But I am no longer that much fun
and it doesn’t matter if I write poems with crayons.
The white walls of my room
with all it’s techni-color memories, and posters and glossy paper mirrors
just don’t seem like a giant coloring book anymore.

(simplifying two)

I always wanted to write you
A poem on glass.
Something beautiful.
Transparent.

The type of rare that’s inexpensive.

Break it. Give it to you.

Have you put the letters
Back together for me.

It’ll be a brilliant metaphor.
You won’t know it.

And I will

Thank you for returning
My feelings.

(one)